Reality

Recently I've fallen on to this post on the internet. It talks about how we shouldn't be worried about saving the earth. But to save ourselves. It talks about how we will sooner or later demolish like the dinosaurs, and earth will replenish again. This makes me think. It makes me wonder if we are really alive. If everything that is happening, really happening. 

I sometimes get thoughts about how the future me will be. When I get older, get married, have kids, get ill, and eventually pass. I wonder if all of this will even happen. I wonder if this is real. If the things I'm doing, the things I say, the things I see and the things I hear are real. Sometimes. Reality is scary. Sometimes. Overthinking takes over, and it becomes much more terrifying. I start to picture how this is all a lie. I'm just in a dream of some sort, and eventually I will wake up and I will not be who I am today, tomorrow, or even yesterday. 

Since there are many conflicts regarding to how the earth is slowly dying, I wonder how long we still have here. How long til the world blows up into a million pieces. Or how long til someone who has great power, cannot take how the world is anymore, and decides to kill each and every one of us. People will start to die and chaos will arise. 

I believe I am more rather pessimistic than optimistic. My thoughts in this post back up my theory. It may be a bad thing. But that is just how I am. These thoughts float around in my mind from time to time.